To Care or Not to Care
"Am I supposed to pretend like I don't care?" - Kimmy
"No, you are supposed to not care." - Tina Fey
Season 3, Episode 11 "Kimmy Googles the Internet."
I get it. When talking to potential roommates in Baltimore, they mentioned "One of Us" and a different one said they found my website. I gave my number to a guy and clarified that I spelled "Sandi" with an "i" and purposefully did not give him my last name. He put "Sandi" and "Social Work" in a google search... on our first date, he mentioned "I found the gofundme page". I've had a couple of guys buy the book after our first date without telling me until later. Not exactly the ideal but so is life.
At the end of the day, I've learned to own my story (plus, I don't really have a choice since you can buy the book on Amazon). I set the tone for the conversation. I demand respect. Most of the time, people are kind and curious. My biggest fears are to be treated less than, as if I'm incapable to love or to be loved. I can't let my fears rule my life. Do or think what they may.
I am Sandi Giver and I don't care.
Oh, Tina, the smartest TV therapist who drinks a whole lot